I'm still here
Alot of things had happened for the past few days. Don't know where exactly should i start from.Julia and I loitered along the roads leading to nus till dawn, walked all the way from nuh to fongseng and from fongseng back to nuh. Ran out of the house in the middle of the night and got my mum really mad at me...The first time i did such an absurd thing was with u, wonder if u still remember...
I know i may get myself overly involved in something that doesnt even concern me and often i may even get into unnecessary squabbles. I'm not sure if its desirable of me to be reacting in the way i do now, but I just felt there's no way i can help u if u still refuse to tell me the truth. If u were to tell me the exact truth and admit ur mistakes, I really wont leave u in lurch like that. I may be still be unhappy with u, but i promise i'll listen to u...Perhaps that will strike a balance between what i hear from both sides and not allow me to develop extreme opinions. All these years I've never left u alone, but this time u just fail to explain to me for wateva reasons u have despite the many times i looked u up to hear ur side of story...u wasnt like that last time, u would tell me everything .
I guess there's one thing u really have misunderstood me. I dont know how to explain, but perhaps its just the way I put it in the sms. I even felt I phrased it wrongly when I sent out that sms, but I thot u wont be sensitive enough to spot the mistake,guess I was wrong..Bottom line is I've never felt u were disturbin me, even if its in my exam period, but just dun make me upset by misunderstandin me, misinterpreting my intention.(especially that sms) In fact, i always feel very honoured when people confide in me cuz I felt important and trusted.
Was quite upset when I came online to look for u, u refuse to tell me anything, u even told the mummyhead not to tell me anything, u told me that u'll tell me after my exam, but when i looked for u after my exam, u still refuse to tell mi anything. I'm sorry that i wasnt there for u when u most needed me. Though i couldnt be there, i asked a friend up to keep u company....I've never left u .
I used to regard u as my best friend, but to u, i noe im just any other friend.. Hope u'll slow down ur footsteps, so that we'll be able to catch up with u.
posted by xian @ 2:42 AM
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