Will u stay for me?

I was shoppin happily with julia lei n raz when i suddenly receive this call outa nowhere from this person's mum....

I just feel its reli ridiculous for u to ask ur mum to call me up n scold me some vulgarities when i've done nothing wrong...

I was reli hoppin mad at first, but on 2nd thought, i felt that for ur mum to go to such an extent to call sm1 up n scold such a thing, perhaps u're reli goin thru a hard time now...Hope u can see that u're not the onli one suffering, ur loved ones are havin an equally hard time seeing u this way especially ur mum...You used to tell me how ur mum will cry together with u when u're sad, hope you see that ur mum isnt feeling any better than u do right now...
You once told me, I should be responsible for my own happiness, no one is responsible to make me happy, the people around me can only do this much, the rest is up to me...the same goes to u now....
U should be responsible for ur own life, nobody owe u anything for the life u're leading now. Instead of blaming others, y not ask urself what should u do to make urself feel better? Perhaps we did make ur life worse off by not being there when u needed us most, but i reli feel its time u start to see that u bear some responsibility in the life u're leadin now, u shld learn from ur mistakes, u cant go on blaming the whole world but urself. Maybe such self-denial and pushing of blame may gain sympathy from ppl around u, but that's onli how far it will get. Resortin to those underhand means to hurt us may bring to u momentary satisfaction, but it only makes me feel u r even more pitiful. U've a life, why keep intrudin into ppl's life to make them worse off, would tt make you feel any better? Frankly speaking, do u tink friendster reli reflects on ur frenship with others? U reli can play with it all u want, cuz i reli dun care abt such immaterial things, one less or more friend doesnt much to me. Do u reli tink with just that 'delete' click , u can jus erase them away from my life? They still exist in my heart no matter how many times u may try to remove my frens from my life.

I guess i need to apologise to ur mum for hanging up on her...for the reason that she's a zhang bei, i should respect her..i sympathize with ur mum, she mus have reached a reli desperate stage to have done such a thing, but tt doesnt mean she is right...
u've the right to tell ur mum wateva things tt favours ur stand, but it doesnt entitle u the right to ask ur mum to scold me for whateva u tink is right...If u wanan find ur mum to reason with me, stop finding excuses for ur wrongdoings, if there's smth tt u tink i've done wrong, point out to me... cuz up to this point, i really puzzled what could i still have possibly done to ur life... Accusing me tt i'm steppin into ur life and disturbin u is kinda absurd, for the past 1 mth i've been havin my exam..I hardly have time to even go online, tell me how can i possibly disturb u? U've nv even cross my mind, y would i bother about ur life? I may have once ruined ur life in ur opinion, but get this through ur head, u cant hold me responsible for every downturn of ur life. Moreover, u're the one hu say i'm dirt in ur life, so i doubt such dirt will have the capacity to affect u in any way. Its time u get back on ur feet with ur own strength, no1 is responsible to get u up, no1 is obliged to be there wheneva u fall, u live ur life for urself not others. Pls stop making ur loved ones worry for u.

posted by xian @ 12:54 AM